nelson time.

some of my surroundings in this lovely home...

special lunch in front of video with kid friends!

drawing by big girl from a couple years back...

sunny mornings when i have to sleep all day, but can't complain as now the sun has disappeared and it's drizzling and cold...

beautiful stove that is easy to obsessively shine.

first self portrait in the front hall...

soft landing.

arrived in nelson via car on march 4th with papa at wheel. smooth ride, sunshine spilling, sky bright, air fresh. landed softly on the doorstep of my dear surrogate family. having this time to settle in before they return from a trip to california. for the best- as this way i can get all my stuff tucked away before being discovered that i truly am moving in for 2 months! tomorrow morning is day 1 at the hospital. feelings of anticipation, nervousness, excitement, & fatigue, all come and go. but i’ll go with the flow, find a rhythm, and most importantly try to soak it up and take it in. these times of change are filled with learning, and questions and hopes and fears. that’s the way it’s supposed to be… feeling it. breathing it. being it.

international women's day.

i went down to the river...

walking along the fraser river. i have a little space to take walks in the morning, or the afternoon. a little space to think. a little space to breathe. a little space to see. it's february. there is that smell of the wet marshy flats, combined with the cool scent of the river, & jets flying by, tugs tugging.

a gramma & granddaughter playing in gumboots with the waves made by the tugs. giggles and snacks and a stuffed bear on the blanket, waiting.

so many happy dogs, frolicking in the sand, in and out of the water, barking, owners calling to no response. friendly "hellos" to those walking by. a sense of lightness and expansion that comes with taking the time to walk down by the river.

v day

another heart.

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove.

heart.

full heart bright heart

i came across this page in our message notebook that sits by the telephone. it's the week of celebrating love! there's something about valentines day. i've finally accepted that it is my favourite holiday of the year.

i have a sweet memory of going downtown with c & her mama to the war protest back in 2002. dressed in pink, c wearing heart wings, determined to spread love yo. making a huge painted heart for the front door of my house, scrawling more love under it. and every year pulling out the same yellowed and crinkled paper with that shining heart. and i have high hopes, every year of making sweet little heart cookies with pink and red and white icing and offering them to those i hold dearest.

another year, in mexico city with z, meandering the streets on february 14th, heart candies and balloons for sale, covering every inch of the sidewalk. el dia del amor y la amistad- and that's what made sense to me. it's all about love for each and celebrating this bounty with one another and feeling it all. all these memories are flooding back. there's so many more, all so filled with goodness and red foil wrapped chocolate!

happy day of love and friendship...