short reprieve.

i'm checking in with the blogs that i like to look at, and everyone seems to be on a bit of a hiatus from updates... me included. now that things are settling a little bit, i am going to put the intention of having more of a presence on here. enjoying my new camera, picked it up after a few weeks with it tucked away and i'm impressed with the feel, the images, the quality- so i'll share.

up in PR for a few days, taking a short reprieve from the busy-ness of the city life. adjusting to this working life, and the commute, and the hours. it's an interesting experience of commuting to work via downtown- new for me. when i worked up here, i had this serene quiet drive to do, and when i was in nelson, i had this short chilly walk with a beautiful view and children everywhere. this city commute is a very urban experience. the same sounds every day, some of the same riders, and the dark morning and night sky.

taking breaths in this cold cold PR air. there is a thin blanket of snow, it crunching under my feet. the drive up was perfect. took it slow, new mix cd by the wonderful R as company....

dark nights.

the longest night of the year arrives tomorrow. these short days, long nights. so much darkness. so much going in. haven't been able to fully experience it. the daily grind of this and that distracts from the moment- from the quietness of the night- the warmth of the fire. more intention to be in this dark time, with more awareness and gratitude for the darkness surrounding and the light that's coming...

h1n1

it got me. the h1n1 influenza knocked on my door and waltzed right in without asking. it made me feel like i'd run a marathon- legs aching, back aching, head pounding, heart pounding. confirmation with a 38.1 degree fever. didn't even have time to get the damn vaccine.

daily, i read the newspaper. new pandemic headlines- "why panic is not the answer," "provinces scramble to fight flu's second wave," "flu-shot clinics struggle to keep up with demand," etc etc.

there is something odd, and perfect, about sitting on the couch with the flu whilst reading about the pandemic sweeping the nation. at least i know it's not all about me.

we're on day 4 here, the h1n1, and i have to say we are a bit more amicable with one another, since we've had so much Q time on the couch. i want to ask, "when are you leaving me? i've had enough. i've got halloween to enjoy, school to work on, clinical to pass. so why you staying past your welcome?" it doesn't say much to me. it watches battlestar gallactica over my shoulder, observes my mindless browsing of facebook and other such internet sites, all while perching comfortably at the edge of the sofa sipping orange juice.

i'm trying to be patient here, trying to ride through this, but moments of frustration can overcome, so now i am making granola.